Peace and Quiet

Wow this is the first night in a long time where I have had some peace and quiet, no husband, no children and nothing special to do. Its just me, myself and I. I honestly feel a little tired, but all you mothers and wives out there no exactly what I am about to say. Sometime no matter how tired you feel this kinda of a night is totally worth it. You have time to do what you want to do. I am not trying to be a martyr but sometimes I feel so caught up in being a good wife and mother I completely forget myself. honestly I am lucky if I look in the mirror some days.

   You know life is ironic, I used to be so arrogant and say, "how do those women let themselves look like that"
"There is no way I will ever let myself go that much" Well God sure did have a little lesson to teach me. Lets just say everything is not where its supposed to be anymore. I know I should put forth more effort but some days I just feel like I can either slap some makeup on and put on a push up bra  and look nice for my husband or I can sit on the couch in my pajamas and watch desperate housewives. Ummm well lets see. After a day of chasing a toddler around and cooking 3 meals looking good is pretty low on the totem pole. Catch my drift?

Don't get me wrong, I totally love taking care of my family, but I struggle finding the line between love and stupidity. What I am saying is take some time to take care of you. In balance. I also have people in my life who have aired on the side of being to concerned for themselves and neglectful to their responsibilities. So I tend to over compensate by trying to be too selfless. Which is not benefiting my family either, because I have to be able to have something to give. My well is dry tonight.... hopefully God will restore it tomorrow

Have a Goodnight, God Bless You!.